wanderer..

tears are starting to fall from my eyes as i am about to begin this blog.i just cudnt fight the emotions battling inside me.my mind's so empty and i dont know how to deal with this emotional distress.breaking up with the guy that u really love is difficult or akward to do.ending our relationship was a serious loss.i have always been true to him..i tried being the best for him.i gave him everything that i almost forget to leave somethin for myself.i was so into him. our memories together hunt me..every side and corner of the house its him i see.his face just gently resembles in my mind.i coudnt take him off my mind.it shattered me,broke me that i dont know how to just forget him and continue with my life..but i just realized it aint that easy as what i have thought.i have the most memorable moments with him..happy and sad times of our lives..weve been together thru good and bad.we laughed and cried together.thought it wud last forever..we have a lot of plans in stored for our future..one thing i cudnt forget is having a family with you..plans which i thought will really be all coming true.but i later realized..i just fell from a deep sleep.and a bad dream just suddenly woke me up...i realized that not all what u want in life,is what u will also get..
every piece that makes you will forever haunt me.i dont know when the bleeding will stop inside me..but i assure you,it wont take me a long time to heal and recover from the deep cuts of my wounded heart..
i got used that wer always together everday..and now i have to start a new and get used living my life without you as i slowly walk thru the day/...i have never felt so hurt by the person that i always knew that i have been so faithful and honest with.why is it that now ur already ready to commit with the person u truly love, ud rily suffer a lot from it..
my dreams at one sec disappeared..my life long journey has come to its end.my life will never be the same again now that youre gone. i just dont know how to start waking each morning and going to sleep at night knowing that ur already gone and i cant feel ur embrace anymore..oh i will ever miss your lips as it touches mine.and how it will leave a scar in my heart now that i can no longer say i love you to the person that i have experienced true love and i can no longer hear him say the same thing...lost is forever and forever was just a word taken out from my vocabulary..love is lost and its nowhere to be found..