I promised to myself as soon as I step my feet over the shores of lanao...i will try my very best to forget about everything that has happened back in cebu..Particularly with ching.. it was a hard decision for me though. but i guess this is the only way to find out whats really in store for me in the future...and in the heading days...this is one reason also why i got convinced coming home to lanao...to heal all the wounds that have emotionally injured me. That left out a fresh open cut wound that i must completely administer as something fatal and tetanal...as i arrived in lanao...while i was walking down and out from the ship..I took a deep breath...and faked a smile. This is a new day for me...a day that will be forever stick to my ass....the day when I went away...
My first day in lanao..I then made some rules and restrictions for me to at least carry myself from justification and motives of settling down in lanao for a while and for good. may be doing so would help me assist of making things better and for my slow recovery from the pain the break up had left me...im not expecting nor hoping that going away from him would be the right cure for me from gaining back something I have seemingly lost.
Ill
just leave all of this to Him...Moving along with the rules that shall be left stood and abided...one restriction and the most important thing to keep on something within my limits, is to stop our communcation..yes...avoiding and disallowing myself from texting nor calling him...it wud be best if we stop keeping in touch and just continue with each other's priorities...but what the fuck!!its like no matter how i try not to text him, id really end up at one second sending a sms already to him...darn...what can i do,....i aint over him yet...the first two days away from each other...we wer still texting...endless exchanging of messages...it just keeps coming on and on..But it’s no longer the ordinary way of texting...unlikely before, we'd send out at least 200 sms daily. Or more. globe would probably be feeling sorry right now with their unlimitext promo if they happen to know about this..lol!we still are open about the things between us though a slight touch of boundary has already placed in between.we don’t really talk about mushy stuffs already..More or less we talk about the current incident specially the break up..We still talk about how things went wrong ...why it must end this way..Why things got so complicated. Why did it turn all so bad, the possibilities of getting back together and its chances...we still text about how we’ve been missing those times before. Those times when we wer still so happy in love...even if we argue with such things, just a short talk over about it, it’s then settled out..We still give out a reason of these drooling thoughts...that’s why i have set our texting within its limit..As likely as a hundred i suppose..That wouldn’t really give us a lot of time to speak out our minds right? That made me realized hey...I cant move on if we'd continue fetching out hearts like this way..That’s why im having this resolution of just to stop texting him as much as possible..No messages for that Mr. o McDonald.2 days of unbearable opinions still not arriving in its nearest and potential conclusion...and the night of the 2nd day. Before i went to sleep. I promised to myself that i aint texting him no more and im totally over him..and that i wud never ever look at his damn number again...and yes i already deleted it...but is it on my mind?and i slept..Senseless devour...
And on the third day..He rose again!!lol!!what the...hehe...
and on the third day...an annoying sound woke my sleepy head out....and i turned my drowsy eyes unto my phone wondering who the fuck was calling me so early in the morning...and when i stared at the number closely it looked familiar..and i was surprised when i later on knew it was ching's number...see...it never comes out in my mind..he called me..it made my eyebrows raised. its a miracle...somethin that he has never done before in our 4 months together..and now 9am in the morning his calling me and for what reaSon..it left me wondering and then i received a message from him..Telling that his phone's not working anymore..It got broken. He said he was drunk last night and he forgot that he was holding his phone while he was going up by the stairs; suddenly he heard some crashing noise falling into the ground. And then he found his phone on the floor broke. And I replied asking him. And y tell these things to me...as if I can do anything about it...and then he replied. His rily worried coz he can no longer text me. And that he'd miss me if he can’t text me. while I was reading that message...I was laughing...sarcastically asking him then...oh really...can no longer text me or text ur x gf...miss me or miss ur x'gf..and the usual...he denied it!!AGAIN!!!oh i just hate the both of them...i just want to stamp on their fuckin dumb dick heads....i hate ching coz u blinded me...u lied to me..u never get to notice my feelings that
ur
already hurting me..and nowur
always denying it..thatur
not texting her..i maybe a stupid wretched gurl but i aint stupid for you to fool dude...and ur x gf who thinks shes pretty but feeling pretty na ang naong murag head title sa mga salida na korean novelas....abi nimu ug character sah?di oi....ehehehe....if you just paid respect to the present then things will never go wrong between me and ching...ur somethin from his past and im somethin in his present...cant u just totally bury urself?coz no matter how i bury u?ud always come back and ruin our life...and now the case is over...everything’s already facing to its end....
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