It took part. I later figured it out…and then I stood up and faced the mirror…and I saw. a face that I have never seen for a long time…a face that I truly believe was really mine…a face….a smiling face……yes…… the face that I was once lost and then I cudnt believe it. I couldn’t believe it with my very own eyes.
I realized….i have totally had my closure from my past with ching..and the feeling?its totally gone…I can no longer feel something special right now for him…the feeling of love…missing…its already gone…and I went lying on my bed again…smiling..laughing…and I I felt something burning..my eyes started to wet..and it fell all the way down into my face.lingering from the instill vanity ..and i was crying..crying for my freedom…freedom from the great despair…having this profound feeling that there aint no hope for me anymore..it was savaging..and yet all turned out to ashes..thick as snow..and I wiped my tears dry. And there was hope..peril of hurt and misery is out of shade..its like im senseless into getting trouble again…and the vain attempt to escape from such devastation is thoroughly crippled…Its like unclogging urself from obstruction..locked up in prison for many years for an offense and crime that u never did at all and u wer then on acquitted..its like waking up from a deep sleep with torturous nightmares..its like winning over from an outrage of anguish and war within
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thoughts..and oh..how I longed for this day to come…I never expected it will only take me a short span of time to cool it all down…but it doesn’t matter…im ready to stand up firmly again….And later that day..i found myself riding our car together with my parents and my lil kiddo cousins going to tukuran…it was one hell of a trip…a 1 hr and 30 min mountain rock drive from our place..I came and ponder..i have been missing a lot of wonderful things since the time I have lost my way..since love has blinded me…I thought life would never give back my happiness again..but it did…the things that surround me I just knew they wer the ones filling it all out…the empty space of my life and gave a shade of bright colors to the darker side of my drifting days trying to search for answers of my unpleasant thoughts and unbearable sorrow…
Love has made out a fool of me..that I wasn’t able to give attention to those people who were deeply concerned about me…I gave them away…my family,friends,relatives and my interests in life..i was too busy falling in love and falling out of it..trying to get some time being alone..making myself more desperate,aweful,drastic and make everything worser..i never give a damn to the world since we broke up..i became selfish and self-centered..i don’t consider other’s feelings..i was in total trauma..
But now…I must say goodbye to those dreadful days…and hello again to the world of Alice in the wonderland.wer all impossible things are possible…and now im slowly reaching to somewhere again to get something back that foolish love once stole from me…my life….its like being in the process of reincarnation. Life is always good..i always knew it..right from the start..but I was so selfish that I turned my back against it..
Love taught me one great lesson…that loving someone isn’t a mistake at all.. Sometimes it just fell. Love is always in its greatest value but never be selfish to set one free…I realized..loving ching was never a mistake..nor regretful on my side…it was an experience that I will never forget that it taught me how to deal,manifest,carry and move on when its no longer there…love is about everything…ull never learn how to love when ull never feel pain…its not about just giving it all out..its about trust,loyalty, honesty,sincerety, understanding and being there for each other thru thick and thin…
The relationship I had with Ching was real..y?coz it hit me right down straight into my innocent and fragile heart...and if chances are….things are always possible…things are hopeful..i am hopeful as long as im still alive…as long as im barely breathing….but now. To carry and move along from where I once left and took off, I manage to stay happily single and hot as ever..hahah…that would give me some assurance that hey..im just a precious gift from God above…and it aint over yet for the new and improved luscious ms franz Villanueva…hit it baby..oh yeah!!hahaha….
God I feel so damn good..aawwwww….
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