wait up..im gonna try to do this step by step....mmm...im so in the mood inmaking some entry about the happenings that took place few days ago....let me take u backwards....from the ados,adventures,sum burlesque show,dramas,the long odds and evens of what i call"the humdrum love"....WARNING: SOME CONTENTS ARE NONSENSICAL AND COULD CAUSE YOU BRAIN ENCROACHMENT!!
P.S the component contains bisaya and english...okiez!>!>!
november 29 '06( freaky wednseday)
the morning of this day..i woke up beside the love of my life"NEGRA".we spent our 7th monthsary together here in my place.both woke up with a whey-faced cramping on us..we were so wasted that we woke up in the middle of the sunny afternoon that just bit the hell out of our skins...ching went home past 12nn and i went back to sleep coz i still feel so knocked out and jaded from the drinking and pot session we had with our friends last night...
around 5pm,ching gave me a buzz thru sms.he asked permission from me if he could go to chong hua hospital together with his friend to visit their sick friend who was an in patient there.he left me thinking whether id let him go or not..so i replied if i can go with him..but he said no..it made my eyebrows raised..and then i replied like asking him why wouldnt he want me to come with him...i kept askin him why..bugging him the same question from one text msg to the other....and then suddenly..things went crazy....we fought....coz of that issue...things got bigger and bigger and ended up arguing and scolding each other thru text....it distraught me...and there i gave out a transient madness..he said some things that annoyed me..irk me from my irritability...and then we found each other deciding to just end all of this damn screwy relationship....i was tired so as he...i cried..bursting myself from tears..drowning from it like i just wanna break down and cry...and yes i did...i hurriedly texted my mom that i really wanna go to lanao del norte as soon as possible with some white lies to cover the real reason as of why the sudden stubborness...i just wanna go out from this fucked up city....my mom didnt replied...and it made me more riled up...skin and bones!!!!!so so so....i texted ching telling him that im coming over at his place to get my travelling bag coz he borrowed it from me.he told me if i could just get it the next day but i kept insisting...he then said yes but he'll just leave it over to his friend coz he doesnt like to see me...duh!!!grin!!!the stupid ill-headed jerk!
it was around 11pm that night when i finished dressing up.preparing to go over at ching's place and get my stuff from him...but when i was about to go out from our house..someone sent me a message..and it left me wandering!!!it was rusty(ching's x gf)..i was quite hesitant to check it out..i was thinking to just delete it w/o reading it....i mean why would she text me..we were enemies still way back..when i discovered that they were still texting,i combatted her thru text...but its just seemingly what they call a woman's aptness and instinct.so yeah..i opened and read her messages..they were coming one message to the other...and what the fuck!!am i reading all of these right?or am i just covered up with my instillness of anger...ang amaw nga ching!!!ni text ni rusty na nanghagad ug inum sa ila balay pajud!yawa!!!!rusty forwarded ching's messages to her to me....if you guys could just see what i was reading..grrrrrrrrrrrr......the fuck!the moron!!!
i took a cab to mabolo...texted ching naa nako sa korean bldg near their place.but as to my surprise it wasnt him who brought me my bag but it was el2,a friend of ours..i then asked el2 where the fuck is ching and then el2 replied that he doesnt know..but im fuckin sure that his just around somewhere..i then texted ching to right and there see me..and he showed up..i arrived there overflowing with unsaneness....i gave him my phone and i let him read all the messages that rusty forwarded me from ching...and after reading it,while he was about to look up and face me,WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I FUCKING SLAPPED HIM ON HIS FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TWICE1U HEARD TWICE!!!AND I MUST SAY IT WAS DAMN PAINFUL COZ I CAN EVEN FEEL THAT MY HANDS WERE SCOURGING!!and then i cried....how could he do a such thing to me when all i did was to make him happy..i never lied to him..i never cheated...i never texted any guys that he doesnt know...i never hid any secrets from him coz i dont want him to lose his trust on me...i was faithful!!!!!!!!but i was hurt!!!!
he explained why he did that...but i never gave my ears and listened....the hell i care!then we decided to really end all of this....im fed up...so as he..it sucks!!!!
i was about to go home when he grabbed me by the hand and told me not to go home yet...he went back to his house and got back out with a bottle of red horse while a friend of ours was waiting outside...and now..they were actually going to have some drinking sessions...i later knew that they were already drinking before i arrived.ching's face was making the impression of getting tipsy and dosed over with tanduay and beer...i didnt join them..i just sat next to him not uttering a single word...i was mad,hurt,lost!!!!!i was just listening to them...ching was obviously making"padungog dungog" that he was hurt,he wants to die,commit suicide and all that piece of crapness...and yes..they were really drunk..
after their session,i decided to just go home but ching begged to let me stay and just sleep at his place.and seeing him like that,so drunk and boozy,with that pie-eyed look, i cant just leave him in that condition...so i craddled him to his room and i was trying to make him feel at ease...he then cried.telling me if the things that i said a while ago were all said and done?and when i said yes..he cried out loud..and to my suspense, it was the first time i have seen him for 7 months so drunk and besotted from alcohol...i felt pity...i never slept that night...instead i looked and watched over him as he was slowly beginning to close his eyes..i can see that he was tired...he was murmuring in his sleep. i hugged him tight..kissed him all over his face just to let him feel that im still beside him and im not leaving him...until the morning arose...i never had the time to sleep and even gave myself a nap..i was worried of ching's condition....he was weak...
but then i have to go home before everyone in his place wakes up...i arrived home around 7am in the morning..i laid on my bed crying myself from tears of pain..and then i fell asleep....crying is tiring...just giving me the worse time and action ever in falling asleep!
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