my polkadot bikini..aint yellow..

Love is something that is not easily explained No one word can express it And no one person feels the same about it It’s waking up in the morning wanting to be with that one person
And going to bed feeling the same way It’s knowing that you want to spend the rest of your life with him And it's a feeling so great that no matter what anyone says will never be taken away It’s crying every night when the one you love doesn’t love you back It’s feeling that pain in your heart when you lose that one person. But to just hear those three little words come from his mouth And actually know he means it That’s the best feeling in the world To know that someone loves you for you And wants to be with you forever Love is hard to find, and even harder to keep It takes time and effort to keep it going But you don’t mind because you would do anything in the world to keep it It’s knowing that when you come home you’ll have someone to share your day with It’s that last conversation of the night before you fall asleep He’s the first one you want when you wake up The only thing that’s on your mind all day, every day It's knowing that someone’s always there for you to cry on Someone’s always there for you to talk to about anything And won’t judge you for that It’s the person you feel the most comfortable with in the world And to know that you have that That you share that special bond with one other person That’s the best feeling in the world. But when you lose that feeling When you lose the only thing that ever mattered to you It seems like life has no purpose, no point at all You feel like you could just curl up and die That nothing or no one else matters to you And the only thing that you’ve ever wanted is now gone And you will do anything to get him back, Because he’s worth it You’ll try and try until one day you realize That things will never be the same again. Your love is still there, deep inside of you So you try your best to just be friends, And it works for a while But the feelings are still there And no matter how hard you try friend will never be good enough So you want to forget about him, but that’s even harder There’s too many memories, to many good times to just forget And no matter what you do, he’s always there Everywhere you look, everything you do, every place you go, Every song you hear, every guy you see Reminds you of him And you hope some day you’ll be back together But until then there’s nothing you can do But sit and cry, to go through that pain when he talks about Another girl he likes, or how good his life is going And that pain breaks your heart day after day Tear after tear, until you have no mores tears to cry Until you just get used to that hole in your heart that won’t go away, That pain that never leaves you That lonely feeling that stays with you forever And you may have other guys, but nothing or no one could ever compare, and you know that.

i am sick ...

nyay...lame as ever ako blog run...anyway,this day???luoy lang jud kaau...actually i woke up so early around 9am..i then switched my pc on and check over my mails and went on line in ym..then nagchat mi ni bea(gf sa cousin ni ching) ..then she told me that mata na daw si ian..hala...ms nauna pa sya kabalo na mata na akong bana..mmm...amaw jud ka boo..so i called ching dayun to make sure if mata na ba jud sya and of korz..mata na jud diay..nag watch daw sya basketball then bag uhay lng jud daw sya ni mata..pero natulog ug balik..ana pa sya na manghilam-us sa dw sya then text ra sya nku..amawa ka..yaw ko ilara...6 months na ta hapit nya ilarun pajud ko nimo...hilam-us nuon sa unlan..kabalo jd ko na matug pka balik..ug sa dihang pwertng saktuha nko..so cge go..slip sya balik then nag surf ko sa net while sya nag hagok pa..then ni larga ako papa sa balamban ky ambot naunsa nsd to among piggery ngd2..nya ni text si ching mga 12noon mata na daw sya then sabot mi na kita mi sm ky puros mi gipang laay..sige lng ga mika..nagsuwat2 ko ako poems ky ako hatag nya usa ka baga nga notebook ako tnan hinimu nga poems sukad atong nag uyab mi..hantud run..nya sa sige nmung sabot..instead na magkita mi sa sm, ni ana nlng sya na sya nlng ari sa haws ky pra makalikay ko sa gasto ky basta ako na mka laag bisan unsa nalng ako mahuna hunaan ug palit..nya luoy au ang amaw ky nag sakit...huhuhuhu..mao sya nlng daw muari ky magpagalam sya...so mga 4pm naabot sya then tuod gihilanat jud sya...luya au ug naong nya gipatumar nko tambal then gi patulog..taas au ug tug...wa jud nko samuka..kay nindot au ug nalingaw ko sa iyang hagok..while nagbantay ko nya nag padayun ko suwat sa ako poem.then nimata sya ky ni samut lain iya paminaw mao ako sya gilutuan ug noodles pra kahigop sya sabaw then dungan mi kaun..amo sud-an ky miswa,sardinas naay itlog,soriso ug buwad ug humba sd..nalingaw mi ug kaon ky basta kami na mgdungan ug kaon, grabeh amu sturya di mahurot..human namu kaon natulog nsd sya balik..then check nko iya temperature then observ gamy then inum nsd sya tmbal .then nag talk mi as in nice au amung topic..about sa amu mga ex ug sa status sa amu relationshi karun..happy na au ko sa amu situation run..dugay na au mi last nag away...as in wa na gubot then loving as ever..happy kio kay mas ni strong amu bond and mas naa nkoy trust nya run..nice jud au amu gi pang sturya ganina..sweet nga naay joke2 gamay..naay romantic ever chuchu..hehehe...ana lng..then mga 11pm niuli sya..text sya nko ok na sya gamay/..luoy au ang negra..yaw luya2 ky mag inum pata ugma sa handuraw..hehehe..

then karun rako kabalik net ...hahai....ugma tukar daw mi handuraw kana kung ok na si ching ky sya mn amu sessionist na drummer run..hahai....paitz...

stoner chick rules!

Stoner chick..yes thats who i am...

and damn right..its true..

coz i can get more weed than anyone of you

most guys think that a girl like me can't toke

pass it on niggah..

ill show u some smoke

joint,pipes, bong..who fuckin cares?!

if its weed and smokeable..

ill be there...

so if you do believe or not,

a stoner chick like me can really smoke a lol of

fuckin kickin ass pot..

dReam wiTh tHee..

Beautiful dreamer,

wake unto me,

Starlight and dewdrops are waiting for thee;

Sounds of the rude world heard in the day,

Lull'd by the moonlight have all pass'd a way!

abyss...

beware apertured door eye
trickling vision into the sea of our love...

when lovers mee
tcan anyone block the moon/
nor switch off the sky-high star?

calmness of darkness

The world seemed cold those days. Symptoms of what once was happiness. The cold ground against my feet reminded me of the anxiety I once had. But the new hope is in your eyes, your face.
The everlasting emotion that is buried inside us comes out and shows its self to the light of day. My shoulders felt heavy at once. But now that the book has opened. I am able to re-write my story. You heart will be the paper, and my love will be the pen. You will be my masterpiece. You are my masterpiece. Heart, Soul, Will, and Commitment...Brought me up so far...but now that has faded away. Far away from my grasp. Who ever thought it could be you. You, the one I trusted, the one I beloved. My heart inhaled you, taking in the sweet fumes of your passion. But I forgot to read the label "Caution: May cause heartbreak and/or loneliness."Your fine print has gotten past me and your poison has seeped into my veins. This book I have written has become lackluster, filled will sorrow and misery. What emotion? What happiness? Was it ever there? Is the charade over? Why...

just keep on sucking..

You know the thing that sucks
is that you can treat me bad
and walk all over me and
id still love you
That you can never call me back
when I ring and
id still love you
that you can dump me a day before formal
and id still love you
That you can bag me out to other people
and id still love you
That you can spread rumours about me and
id still love you
That you can lie right to my face
and id still love you
That you can cheat on me and
id still love you
That you can make me cry so much that I cant breathe and
guess what id still love you.
But the real thing that sucks is that I cant get over you.

and im wane all over..

I tried my best to conquer,

I tried my best to win

I thought my mind was powerful,

seems its just oblivion.

I'm sorry for the burdens I have laid on you.

I tried my best to see that our love would be true.

I had my friends and loved ones once upon a time.

I risked my own sweet life just so you'd be mine.

I have my reasons for being with you

I wish I could explain it,

I'll try to prove it soonI used to be so mighty,

I used to be so great but of course when you came around I lost my ruling place.

You will not admit it, as you shut me up,

You are my true copy such mimicking luck

The stars had crossed our paths yours upon mine

or perhaps it was something greater, you'll knowin your own time.

And as I lie here weakened by your words

the Almighty in me will repeat itself

before I turn into one of your works,

You always tell me you're the best as you brag and gloat

I see my strength being drained, as a zombie Iwill mope.

Like for everyone else, I am your truesource,

You rely on me,

although I'm dumb and weak

I shall show you someday,

I will make you see. And when I do recover,

and be the great one I truly am

I will love you forever and ever till the end.

my pretty rose

A flower was offered to me

Such a flower as May never bore

.But I said "I've a Pretty Rose-tree",

And I passed the sweet flower o'er.

Then I went to my Pretty Rose-tree

To tend her by day and by night.

But my Rose turn'd away with jealousy

And her thorns were my only delight.

shattered

Shattered heart
Battered soul
Fell apart
No one to hold

Hold back tears
They keep falling
I hope he hears
My heart calling

Into the wind
Love blows like sand
My wounds will mend
I'll love again

looking thru a bum's eyes

I am a bum.
I am your worst nightmare but I do not care.
I have great insight and wisdom so let me share.
I have seen night and I also seen day.

I have seen happiness and I have seen pain.
I have witnessed the sane and the insane.
When you are thinking that you are really intact with the world you are really living in this whirlwind.

So when you see me on the corner
Please pay me some mind.
Maybe you can see the world through more than your eyes.

CrAzy

I live my life
with feeling of your touch on my mind
I live my life no not this love that
last till the end of time.

You mean so much to me
you are my love till the end
Your always there for me you
you'll always be my bestfriend.

Whenever you're not with me
I go crazy
How I love you so
Her can squeeze me baby
Never let me go, let me go

I carry for a time
When I think of you
With a smile upon my face, baby
And it made my dreams come true
No one can ever take your place, no no

Seems that you are made for me
coz our love feelsso right
The only thing that keeps me happy
(Is having you by my side day and night)

Coz whenever you're not with me
I go crazy
How I love you so
Her can squeeze me hold me baby
Never let me go

When I look in your eyes
I can't disguise it
I'll go crazy over you
Didn't take me long to realize
You drive me crazy
and there's nothing I can do

Don't yah know that your love
it drives me it drives me
Crazy crazy woman you drive by me nuts
Well every time I see you me mind want to buzz
You're the only one possess the keys to this heart
You know this love was right gyal right from thestart

Just to be with you was like a dream come true
And if you only knew how much I care for you
(Remember)Now this time this side decides gyal trust in me
Take my mind mind woman I will set you free

Stay with me or I'll go crazy....

butterfly effect

Evan Treborn (Ashton Kutcher) has lost track of time. From an early age, crucial moments of his life have disappeared into a black hole of forgetting, his boyhood marred by a series of terrifying events he can’t remember.
What remains is the ghost of memory and the broken lives of his childhood friends, Kayleigh (Amy Smart), Lenny (Elden Henson) and Tommy (William Lee Scott).
Throughout his childhood, Evan was under the care of a psychologist who encouraged him to keep a journal, detailing the events of his day-to-day life. Now in college, Evan reads from one of those journals and finds himself thrust inexplicably back in time.

Evan comes to realize the notebooks he keeps under his bed are a vehicle, a way to return to the past to reclaim his memories. But these recollections only leave Evan feeling responsible for the damaged lives of his friends, especially Kayleigh, the childhood sweetheart he still loves.
Determined to do something now that he was incapable of doing then, Evan purposely travels back in time, his present-day mind occupying his childhood body, in an attempt to re-write history and spare his friends and loved ones these traumatic experiences. By altering the events of the past, Evan hopes to transform the present.

But every time Evan changes something in the past, he returns to the present to find his actions have unexpected and disastrous consequences. Try as he might, he can’t seem to create a reality that allows he and Kayleigh to live “happily ever after.”

the Ati Tribe of Naga

Living from hand to mouth.

as i see a black child seeking for the light..

as i cry my innocence thru suffering..

see how many are better off than you are , but consider how many are worse.

(with andre, MArk and the Ati Tribe in Naga)

A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.

this project is for the benefit of the ati tribe of san poblacion naga...

hear my sweet sounding melody

Quiet, light rhythm as of drums,
Beating; the beginning of the song.
The soul becomes one with the beat,
Following an invisible pied piper.

Now, with the drums,
intones a melody,
Light and gentle yet the foundation
For the music composed from within.

Flowing, yet silent waves twinkle, though
Not to the body,
but to the inner soul.
Newer, more perfect, more beautiful
Streams continue to into with the first,
Producing a heart overflowing with
Emotionally, crystal perfect composition.

All cannot hear this splendid music
For only twin souls connected forever
Can comprehend and hear this
Music of the soul, of love, from within.

amatory thoughts

"I did" isn't an illusion,
But only a truth I lived.

"I do" isn't a choice,
But only a need I bear.

"I will" isn't a promise,
But only a belief I harbor.

Yet, I surely did,
As surely I do . . .
Love you.

LOST..

I write of love and loneliness,
Amidst my years of emptiness,
And wonder where the wonder went,
Because these things I know.

I pen lost words of happiness,
Found in the arms of loveliness,
And wish my wish were never sent,Because he told me no.

I kneel below the loftiness,
Enraptured by my dizziness,
A victim of my swift descent,
Because I fell so low.

My rhymes have all turned venomous,
To twisted words of dreariness,
I hate the hate I never meant,
Because I hated so.

Yet still I write in artlessness,
Of feelings felt in happiness,
Of times past time I ne’er lament
Because I can’t let go.

velez student night....

14th of october a saturday...velez students night at the CAP HALL CENTER...


this was an event with many bands who came and performed... velez bands and guest bands just for the people who came and watched.....it was last night..and before i went there..i was not really in the mood..i had a tiring day..we went to colon with my bro and dad...and we walked miles and miles...huhuhuhu...havent got enough sleep and rest so i was feeling exhausted and heavy...it was not a good night for me..tho our performance went well and people liked it so i guess that made my night a bit better...only few people came and i think there just from velez...i understand coz the tickets were damn expnsive and its really hard to sell tickets that will worth a person a hundred box...and it was not really that satisfying for the perfoming bands coz we dont have talent fees for this event but its still okay as long as were helping..that wouldnt be something to babble about...

after the event we went to joint near velez played billiards and had some beers..with my bro,taririt,ruby and ching...that night i didnt spend a lot of dash since ruby offered us that it was her treat.we all got drunk..and joint was closing so we moved to c24 to continue our drinking session...we finished around 430am..and ruby went home alone while me,ching,taririt and my bro went to tapsilogan in mabolo to eat coz were damn wasted and hungry.around 530 we then went home..and i slept..

basta last night....was not my night...

an obsessed cellphone junkie..

i was planning to buy a new phone.so my dad and bro accompanied me to sm to check out some cellphone units..i only have a small budget for it since i already gave up my being so obssess and updated with my phone.i could still remmber way back in high school when i had my first cellphone in 2nd yr.that was a N5110.my mom bought it for me..and would u believe that i was the first one in our family to have a cel?my dad and mom never owned one b4..i was so obssessed with my phone..i could spend 900 woth of cellphone load in a week..imagine that..and my dad wouldnt really give a damn since they were still ignorant with hi tech stuffs..i was a cellphone junkie at the age of 13..beat that..when i was in my 3rd yr,i had 3 cellphones with me..my N5110,N3310 and a motoral unit i just forgot the what model..i think that was a v288..and id spend thousands of load for it..i never bothered at all ff id spend my whole allowance for my load..as long as i have my buddies with me life is already complete..but i wasnt satisfied yet..i kept changing units..every 2 months..pul-anun nga bata bitaw..heheh...im not contented with one phone and sticking to one unit at a long period of time..so i was always updated..whatever unit is popular and new, id definitely have to have one of those..

until i reached college..my obsession got fuckin worst..its worser than u think...i keep buying new brands of cellphones every two weeks..and my friends and even my parents are really surprised why i keep having a new unit every two weeks.since that trade in came to my busy world..everything was defining...and believe me..their aint just the cheap phones that we see around..id totally saved for it..one reason why i was slimming down also coz i never spend even a single cent of my allowance for my food..all for the sake of my phone..the most expensive phone that i got was N6600.my dad bought it for me in its first worldwide release..he bought it for 24k.and it was shit dude..my first camera phone was n7650.it was also the first camera phone released by nokia..i bought it for 19k.i had a N3650 i bought for 16k.a N3660 which has somthin in common with N3650 for 19k.i had a N3200 worth 9k.sony erickson t290 worth 5k.N6101 worth 12k.N7610 worth 17k..and with the numbers that ure seeing .i know what ur actually thinking right now..im sooo extravagant to the bones..my dad would even complain already that im spending too much of my money from these gadgets...and im not jst obsessed...i was afraid to admit that i was totally and insanely addicted by it...and yes i was...

but suddenly there came a turning point in my life that i came to think on something that i should have thought even before...but i was too blind and i got blinded from social competitiveness and material abduction..i shouldnt be doing this in the first place...i was crazy,insane,absurd,pathetic,a loser.....i realized money was hard to gain and have...specially right now that i stopped school and my dad is a retiree already...i just couldnt spend a lot of my money and i have to budget my money for my expenses unlike b4...these cellphone gadgets poisoned my mind..my heart my life...

it was hard for me to stop and rehabilitate by abstaining myself from buying expensive cellphones..i can spend my money from the things that can be more useful and money's worth for my everyday living...now im learning how to save..and yes it worked very well for me...right now i went back to my old model..N7650.its an old school camera phone still useful tho...and im contented and satisfied with it already....just as how i look at life....contented,fulfilled,gratifying,satisfied.....as long as im happy and enjoying every single day im living in this crazy world......its all that i care,....

an irie night..spooky and hooky..

wow...mmm..wait huh...ill tell you my 2 days of unwritten blogs one at a time..

friday.. 13th of october skankinbrews live acoustic session...

we decided to have our last and final practice that night around 6pm at talenfolio..kian arrived first then me then ching...as we were waiting for the rest,ching and i decided to eat at JCA just near the place..we ate spaghetti and went back to talent afterwards.mel came then LA n Alvin..and imagine si paul amu faggot nga vocalist 8pm na naabot..huh!!!2 hrs late...we kept calling him and he never answered..but at least he came than he would never..so we started our practice at 9pm and finished around 10pm.we immediately proceeded to kahayag then surprisingly and to our dismay...out of the three bands who were supposedly performing that night(that includes us),we realized we were the first band to arrive at kahayag then the other two already backed out on the said event..it was almost 11pm when we started..my dad and bro were there together with my bros friends just to watch the said event..i admit that i got rily shaky there and im a bit nervous..the place was really not that occupied but im happy that as the evening was getting darker and late,people came one twos threes in count to dine and chill..and the place was almost full.when i was about to come on stage,i was starting to think that i wouldnt want all of these people coming in this rainy night,giving their extra time..to spoil there evening so as much as possible and as all the better way as i could perform with my band,we'd be able to satisfy them with some hawaiian reggae music from our covered songs to our own compositions.and we have to hurry things up coz we only have 1 hr to perform coz VECO will be shutting down their whole system at 12 mn.for some technical problems and stuffs..as we were peforming i noticed that my voice was shivering..sign of nervousness..but after the first song when people started applauding, i told myself "franz u gotta do this..ur dad's watching u..be proud.."and the rest of night went well..and the funny thing..NAABTAN MI SA BROWN OUT PERO SA ENDING NA SA LAST SONG.so its still kewl..

that night i had the chance to bond with my dad and bro.we talked about a lot of things..from our performance to some stuffs that arent really related to music..such as our lives and entruding one's life..i miss doing that with my dad.we used to talk from night till dawn..just imagine how many pails of saliva we come to waste just to talk and talk..laugh and laugh about every story that comes out in oiur mind..i didnt even have the whole night talking and hanging out with ching coz i was so busy conversing with my dad and bro..around1am we went home.my dad sent ching home first and then the rest..and when i got home i then turned on my pc and u know what that night..id never ever forget the creepy and scary experience i had in our living room..

i was lurking on the internet around 1am with the lights turned off. when i suddenly heard some banging noise in our screen door of our main door which is 3 steps away from where i was sitting..it was a low banging noise so i really never bothered at all..i thought it was just our stupid cat..but as time was ticking down,the noise started to sound a bit louder and louder and louder then fatser faster...and i just couldnt check it myself so i frantically ran to my bro's room and told him that there was somethin in the main door..we both went out in his room and grabbed a dustpan..and he then opened the main door and checked..but we never saw somethin ..even a flick of a shadow from anyone,somebody or something..i got really really scared so i hurriedly shut down my pc went inside my room and i prayed..then slept afterwards..the next day we told my dad about it..it really scared me out of my bones...it was so spooky that id harldy imagine this happening in my life since i never believed in supernatural beings specifically moommoooo....waaa........just one hell of a night...

that was one hell of an irie night...hahahaha...damn!!!!

my saga of tears...

I sit all alone in this room

As memories unfold

Tears streaming down my face again

This pain never grows old

Some say it's a state of mind

But it's my heart that really hurts

I only aim to please you all

But what's a smile really worth?

This is the story of my life

The saga of my tears

A story told a thousand times

Remade over the years

If you listen up closely

Maybe you might hear

The beating of my heart

And the saga of my tears

They say that life's a trip

I hit the ground face first

Lost everything I ever wanted

But it could have been worse

Or that's what they tell me

Do they sit alone in the dark?

Or stare into broken mirrors

Thinking it's the pieces of their heart

This is the story of my life

The saga of my tears

A story told a thousand times

Remade over the years

If you listen up closely

Maybe you might hear

The beating of my heart

And the saga of my tears

This is the saga of my tears

A saga that never ends

This a the saga of my tears

That fall from cheeks til the end

crazy but fun irie night....

Its 7:52am in the morning. Its freaky Friday and I haven’t got any sleep yet since last night…I went to talent folio to meet up with my band mates and ching of course. For our practice. And tell you. It’s the worst practice I ever had with the band.why? Let me tell you why? 1st...It’s heavily raining.2nd.im definitely a model for late comers as the usual. I arrived 1 hr late.again.duh...3rd.ching and Mel were not familiar with the songs especially the covered songs.4th.were not complete.5th.i let zelost wait for me for 2 hrs at JCA.God!!6th.i only have 200 box with me.7th.i was soaking wet when I arrived at the place.7th.havent memorized all the songs though I get to familiarized it.8th.i got drunk…as always..Whats the fuckin deal...nothings really different.., I mean every time I write something in this blog, and I always get home drunk…

After the practice we headed ourselves to mango square at la mer bar. The place is somewhat new. It’s our first time to go there so we don’t really know what the place looks like. But we new that there’s a reggae event kicking so we went there. And the place aint that bad at all. Its ok...well...it’s big and spacious. a lot of people were there to witness the said event...unfortunately we weren’t able to play coz we got informed late already...anyway...yeah..We had a couple of read horse then LA, kian and his friend went home first. So it’s me and ching who were left to see and check out the fun. Take note. I only got 130 box with me. So to be fair with each other, we had some chip in2x style...heheh…then during the third bottle I felt a lil tipsy already since I haven’t ate my lunch and dinner so there’s nothing to digest inside my tummy. then a couple of our friends who were also performers that night joined us and that’s how I got really2x drunk. Last night was crazy...ching jammed with santing scalawags and peace 420. And people were really applauding. And im so proud of him. As I was savoring the drunkenness over my body and mind, barok and ice of peace 420 called me and asked if I could sing with them. And that I didn’t turned them down...hello...im sooo drunk...and I think its really a time were I can get crazy over music on stage..Lol…I didn’t expect a lot of people would come in front of the stage to sing and dance with us. Wow….now…red horse…makes me a perfect performer...hehehe….and I sang 2 songs from bob Marley...waiting in vain(theme song namu ni ching) and kinky reggae(theme song of my life)...after the show,we drank again and ching and I decided to go home ahead.we went home about 3am in the morning both drunk. Only 30 pesos with us so we have to take a jeep instead a cab which we really usually ride. We went to his place and slept. I didn’t have the chance to have some chitchats with ching since I cant even open eyes due to my tiring oblivion with beer…I went home 530am in the morning so hungry. Very hungry. When we were walking down the street. we were joking around with food…we were both damn hungry and all we could ever think of that time was food…lots of food…so I never missed out the chance to really eat when I got home’s cooked for myself and ate then proceeded to the living room. Turned on the pc and Walla…here I am right now. At the comforts of my home...nuthin but broadband connection and some tapsilog breakfast for the hungry fine lady…

And oh tonight...kahayag acoustic sessions with my band...there will be three bands performing...but were the only reggae band to perform to you live so btter check us out there. And imp so happy that my dad called me 30 minutes ago that his going home from balamban this afternoon just to watch me sing tonight. Very supportive father. I wish my mom would do the same maybe one day….before well head off to kahayag, well have our practice first in talent folio…the practice last night was really a mess and crappy stuff…we need to clean everything..ching;s band is having their practice also tonight for tomorrows event in CAP hall center. Well be performing with the same event so better come by and join the fun eyt….

love is only a feeling..

weeee....ching visited me here sa haws last night and he also slept here coz i dont want him to go home so late at night....we had somew funny stuffs going on...then sepra2 sa mga kanta..had some serious talks...chika2...teasing2..ayeee.....im just so happy that since that day we had the most terrible fight of the century, we never have problems and wer luvin life right now....happy together again...we never fought for 2 weeks..and thats a record..hehehe....

im seeing him and the rest of my band mates tomight..ching's band will be having their practice so does mine....so well be very busy this weekend..blast......

hahai...cant wait for next sem.....im going back to school again...isnt that great huh.....thats goes for ching too...classmates and partners in crime...well definitely rock the caqmpus duddiess...lol!!

i have my new myspace at last......pls add me up eyt... franzrasta@yahoo.com

total mess...the usual!!

i just so hated this day........last night i got so freakin wasted and drunk....i drowned myself from beer at turtles nest with my band mates,ching and my new friend who helped us with this event that were going to be in this cumin saturday in velez..shes completely a blessing in disguise to us thanx to a common friend of ours...anywayz yeah..i got so fucked up coz we wer to meet like 6pm last night but i arrived 2 hrs late..imagine...how professional of me..i was even the one who decided for the time that well be meeting up but it was i who arrived last...thanx ching......coz of ur damn cd i have to ride a taxi from lapu2 to lahug..and that would cost me 1/4 of my allowance this week which id rather buy 3 pieces of shawarma for my hungry tummy...they welcomed me with a glass of cold red horse on the rocks and God i was really thirsty...we talked about the gig this coming saturday..no TF..the tickets are sold for 100 box..food and drinks (that would be softdrinks and not beer)..more preferably the bands privileges..and boduy arrived...nuthin much about him really...then el2x..friend of ching's who is also a friend of mine in some cases..lol...texted that it was his birthday.so we headed off to his place near ching's in mabolo then continued our drinking sessions together with the rest of the sindulan boys...hehe..that made me even more drunk...damn....i ate 4 pieces of ngohiong..always delicious...cant get enough of it..and i decided to sleep ahead since im really2x drunk...so ching brought me into his room and i fell asleep..he still went back out to drink more and party with his friends...

i went home about 430am in the morning...still sensing and feeling my hung over...when i got home i then slept..i woke up 1030 with my headache fencing over...then i ate then turned on my pc....

tonight i really hate ching......his really driving me crazy.....................his so........mean and rude...indecent..ill mannered...feeling...........................he promised that he'd be our sessionist drummer this friday and saturday since we dont have a drummer anymore coz of what my band mates told me..there drummer who is also a friend of mine has his own world...lol...and now..ching turned us down again since theyll be having their practice tomorrow and this friday..and hello...our gig is this friday at kahayag...and grrrrrrrrrr..i hate him.........and now..wer really going bananas...we just dont know who to get for this events in line for us this week...and

the fuck..i dont care...now my fears are troubling in already....my band and ching's band are really in a total outrage of time..time conflicts....and sessions...im just scared of the open possibilities that these issues would result us our misunderstandings and chaos in our relationship..i just so hope that it wont.......

till here..im ranning out of words..im really sleepy..havent had enough sleep for days.....bye...

letter for mah hoes..

this goes out to mah mothafuckin hoe enemies out there...............kisses for you dearies....

endearing proposal....

date:oct.06 '06...

location: Tapsilogan beside Burp

Time: 12:03am

it was even brown out..tho i was feeling sad and dilapidated coz of the unsuccessful show that i was supposedly in..you were still there to cheer me up.you never left me and still throw some jokes over me..just for him not to see me with that pitiable unweary face of mine, he treated me out to the tapsilogan near handuraw..

we had a candle lit dinner.we were waiting for our tapsilog.in front from each other we sat. you were still doing youre thing making me feel more happy,cheery and confident..i was silent that night..i never did care listening to your korny jokes.when suddenly you grab me by the hand and you gave me that long and straight concentrated look..that made me fall to my curiosity..and suddenly i couldnt believe what u just said to me..its like i want to freeze timeand just remain it right there...

and...the highlight of that night.......

ching: BOO WILL YOU MARRY ME"

franz: (speechless for 10secs.)....then uttered...'BOO, THERE IS NO NEED FOR YOU TO PROPOSE..SINCE THE DAY I FIRST LAID MY EYES ON YOU I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN THAT YOURE THE MAN THAT IM GOING TO MARRY AND SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH...MY WORLD IS ALREADY IN YOURS..AND ITS GONNA EVOLVE in there FOREVER.."

and ended with a special and memorable proposal kiss...

that night..it was more than anything that i have ever wanted in my whole life..i dont give a shit anymore of that handuraw crap....

having ching in my life is a total bless...and i just couldnt ask for more..words are too long to be scribbled down just to describe how happy i am right now knowing that he is mine for good..forever....

CRAP

last friday was totally a bum....weak and a disaster.....i couldnt think of anything but grrrrr...i wanted to scream at the top of my lungs....we werent able to play for the reggae fever for some crappy reasons...BROWN OUT.............damn.......thats aweful....buts ok..i enjoyed the first early bands tho..and i was with ching so it aint a lose really..what else...nothin really happened to me this weekend...just staying at home..trying to gain some strength from those hectic and busy bee nights practicing...

and this week for me is so occupied...just so full of bustle..im about to start doing something spectacular this week...heavy schedule for me and my band..we have some series of gigs going on..hopefully this coming thursday..we'd be able to patch up with that event that my friend told me about..and this oct 14 students night in velez too..heavy aint it huh??right now..somthing is really pestering me...its not who..its even what...HAWAIIAN LYRICS....God its digging up my nervous system..id rather memorize the bill of rights rather than exhausting myself from words that i dont even understand...lol..but im on it.and im still hanging..with the hopes of making it a truly remarkable success..how i wish....my killer instinct is driven overpowerly just for me to succeed this bull crap..

im buying a new cellphone..thanx to my cousin te michelle..and im changing my number that goes for ching also...see..told you..nuthin special is to be read in my blog this time...im so fucked up but still in love..

current status: happy in a milder way..vanity is on the rise...and im all luscious...hahaha...
gonna meet up with some importnat people later...just looking forward having some busy oh day later....hahai.....i miss travelling tho......huhuhuhu

PHOTOGRAPH OF DESIRE

photographed by: tyaishia
models: Franz & Ian Ching
taken: 06 13 06

to my ever loving dad..

You may have thought I didn't see,

Or that I hadn't heard,

Life lessons that you taught to me,

But I got every word.

Perhaps you thought I missed it all,

And that we'd grow apart,

But Dad, I picked up everything,

It's written on my heart.

Without you, Dad,

I wouldn't be

The woman I am today;

You built a strong foundation

No one can take away.

I've grown up with your values,

And I'm very glad I did;

So here's to you, dear father,

From your forever grateful daughter....

poems i heartily made for the best of all best dad's in the whole wide world....

love you papa....