chit chats...this and that!!

one of my most blissful moments...dec 1 '06...gisugat namu ni ching together and december..ug gibiyaan na namu ang november together pud..i must say november?!?pinaka rocky nga month ever sa amu relationship..but hey.....look at us......getting stronger!!!!!!!!ill be leaving for mindanao today(dec 2 '06).ill be staying there for a month with my mom...ngadtoi nsad ko mgpa badlong..hahaha....saunz...so ill be terribly missing ching a lot and of korz my friends...hewllo..one month ra na oi..pero atay!mingaw sd bya..every year mn jud mi mg xmas didto..but naka lahi lng run na month kay sayo ko muadto...trip lng...money tripping..hehehe....ill be back here in cebu dec 28..8th monthsary na namu ni ching..dri mn jud mi cebu mg new year sd...plano mi na after new year,adto mi panglao..celebrate mi amu monthsary.bahala ug late...mgkita mn gihapon mi inig 29..tukar mn kuno sila ana..hehehe...

so mao na sya...chika galore...hahai....daghn happenings oi..bsta this week kay straight ko naa ila ching..ngadto ko ni puyo..hheheh....nice au oi..kay na close na anko iya mga silingan..then kaila nako sa iya mga friends..iya naman gni ko dal-un sa ila basketan kung mgduwa sya basketball..kaila nasad ang mga tao nako sa sindulan ky mao mn pirme kuyug ni ching..akong dagway pirme ga display sa sindulan..ganahan kay ko ngadto mupuyo oi kay malingaw ko sa mga tao..pakaging kaau..hahaha..mga stoners for life..heheheh.....

till my next blog kay wa pajud koy tugpa..gikan nsd ko ila ching then mga 6 am nko nauli then ng 8am nlng wa pakoy tugpa..hahai..insomia strikes again!!ahaha....hahai...mayta mgkita pami ching oi before ko mularga..huhuhuh....mingawun jud kos negra....huhuhuh...pero ok ra kay gabii ngkuyug mn mi..ngbonding mi kuyug iya cousin na arabu na sige lang ga bagulbol bahin sa iya uyab..hahaha....mazen jud...nagdula mi counter..lingawa namu oi...wa jud ka pildi ang mga amaw nako oi...hastang mga banga kaau!way challenge!hihihih....


sige...kay murag gihangos nkog type...ani jud ni bsta wa nay exercise...atay oi..nanambok jud ko.huhuh..ge lng...inig balik nko ..mashock lng nya mo!hahahaha..

meet the granny!!

NAME: ESTER CHING
AGE: 70+
BIRTHDATE:OCTOBER SOMETHING...(hehehe)
CODENAME: ETING


meet ester ching..i dont really wanna write a blog about her...but i guess shes starting to be one big heck of a special cast of my life...

she by the way is Negr'as grandma..but her apo's prefer calling her mama instead..the first time i met her was last june of this yr. but ian already keeps telling me stories about her the first month that we were already together as a couple..and that left me pretty damn hanging just so heedful and wanting to really meet her in person. i was always excited to meet her and ian's relatives. but ian's really a jerk...he wouldnt want me to meet up with his lola if there is no chance for me to cut my dreadlocks..hadlok lng sya basin naa masulti na lain iya lola about nko...and that made me think..as of why would she ever think of something soo way nonsense?i mean hello..this is me..even before she would ever meet me, ani najud ako hair..we found ourselves arguing about the hair issue...but then i cant do anything about it.i have always been that dying and too scraapy to see her.so with my dismay, i just gotta do what ian wants me to do with my hair..CUT IT!!!i was like crying hard while i was removing my dreadz...it has been around with me for 6months..just to meet up with ian's family,i made the biggest sacrifice of my life..but before i even met her.there was this incident that rattled and twaddled me like some thief getting caught by the police...when i received a text message that she got really sick and she had some breakdowns..it badgered me and got me freakish to the bones..u know what i did??the next day i went to GaisanoMactan and bought fruits....ganahan jud ta ko mu visit sa ila house kay i wanna know how she was already doing and feeling after that attack..but ian wouldnt permit me coming over in his place kay dreadz pmn jud ko ato..so instead of me going there to bring her the fruits that i bought for her,ako gi sabotage ang sister ni ian.i texted her na mu agi ko sa ila skina sa haws and ill just drop the basket of fruits sa iya..mao na ako gibuhat pag afternoon. then pila ka minutes,kathleen(ian's sister)texted me..na lipay au ila lola..gipatawag pa gni si ian kay nasuko iya lola na how come wala pajud kuno ko gipa ila ila ni ian sa ilaha..thats why ian txted me.he never knew a single thing of what i did to his lola..he was touched.ana sya na grbaeh daw ko ka caring..alangan..i lost my lolas in an early age and never had the chance to really hang out with them.so 2 days after..ian invited me over at his place..the time that i was really waiting to unravel.

the first time i saw her,first impression nako kay strict sya..isug mn gud naong..but then i can see in her face na malipayon mn sd sya..she may be old but she acts like shes not even 70.healthy pmn sya..and that day,we never had the time to really chat.at least na introduce najud ko db>heheh..then nasundan na dayun.sige nko adto ila..everytime naay occasion sa ila,they never fail to invite me.to be honest,until now hadlok gihpon ko sa lola nila.i mean..amb ot..maulaw lng jud siguro ko...

pero ngadto na nko na realize unsa sya ka nice ug caring when i got pregnant..ian told his lola about my pregnancy pg 1 month sa ako tummy.of coarse,what wud u expect from her reaction?mashock na malain jud dba?but then nigawas jud iya pgka mama ug lola...naluoy sya ni ian..she tried to make ian understand unsa ka dako ug obligation and responsibility ang dal-un ni ian..to tell you,when she knew about me getting preggy,we never really talked about it..the time when i knew that she already knew about it,di na au ko mag adtuan ila ian.i got scared.but then ian told me not to feel that way kay wa mn nasuko iya lola nko.it was like weeks past when ian invited me to eat dinner sa ila place kay it was his cousin's birthday.and by the way,ang nkabalo jud diay na preggy ko kay iya cousin,sister and iya lola.the rest of his relatives were blind about it.

i went to his place dinner time..nice au ang family ni ian.very accommodating..ang wife sa iya uncle ako rman distant relative so ok ra pud..mao to sya first meeting namu sa iya lola after pagkabalo nya na buros ko..and to my surprise..si mama eting ba ni!>!or lain lng...God..she was so generous and kind...sya maoy nag sukad ug food pra nko..iya ko gidala sa buffet table pra mka pick ko ug food...then he told ian na ngadto lng mi sa room nya mangaun..kay samuk sa ubos..ian and i were really shock but at the same time na touch au mi..lola eting cared despite of what happened.iya pajud ko gihatdan ug chocolate cake..so nice of her...

pero ang pinaka pissed jud ko sa iya kana lng jud manawag ko then mangita ko ni ian then usahay muandar ang katapolan ni mama,di nya ihatag nya mu rason nlng sya na wla si ian pero naa gud to kapoyan lng sya twag..hihihi..lagov au!she was so caring...she keeps asking ian kung kumusta nko..and iya mga advices and mga precautions pra nako ky buros ko iya ipatugon kang ian...

and now ngka dugay nami ni ian.mama eting became one big part of me..no doubt!!!from our latest meetings sa ila place,mg sige nami chika about life.what i really admire about her is shes definitely smart and intelligent...open-minded,verbal and grabeh ka updated sa mga current issues of today.hahai..mama eting....akong giilang lola karun....amen!!!!!hehehehe

popping eyes!!!

november 30 '06

mag binisaya ko ha..kay i have friends who were complaining na kapoyan sila basa sa ako blog ky english daw...di sila kasabot....hahaha...

gahapon...ngtext mi ni ching....medyo na ok nami...we were both calm already....i told him if pwde ko muadto sa ila kay kwaun nako ako hulman nga cd installer sa windows xp ug nero ug muborow sd ko sa ila webcam...ngsabot mi na mgdala ko weed pero..i texted my friend na amu contact sa weed..mga 7pm sa gabii niadto ko sa ako migo..pero before ko naabot,atay..gi texsan ko na hurot na sa iya kwaanan..hahaha..mao to tambay nlng ko ngadto ila kuyug iya uyab huwat sa text ni ching kung pwde nko muadto sa ila..si ching nalang ang ngpalit ug weed.mao to mga 8pm ni text na sya na pwde nko muadto nya ng inum sila iya mga amigo ky birthday mn ni cryus!ngdala ko pansit kay amo ta i foodtrip inig human smoke...pag abot nko didto...leche..ka sexy bah ni iska oi...ng tank top mn gud ko..wahaha..di halata nga palahubog ang amaw kay pwera buyag di tawun ko dakog tiyan..hahaha...naabot ko mabolo gisugat ko ni ching..inum mi..nya sturya bahim sa jamaican dollar ni lyndon ky naglalis mi pila jud ang pag pailis ato sa peso...ingun batw ko na 49.60.mao mn igun sa PNB....yaw bnlng palag guds..hihihih...

mga 12mn nato murag nalipong nko dah...irie nsd ang mga tao.wa pa nko na smoke ang gilahi nga joint ni ching pra nko..iya ko gihatod sa ila kay muuna nlng jud ko tulog kay magtiwas pman sila inum gud...

HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sa dihang iya nakong gihatod sa ila....naa na nko sa iya kwarto..ug sa dihang NISULOD ANG LOLA(C MAMA ETING SA KWARTO NI CHING KUNG ASA KO NAGHIGDA!!)SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.........MABOANG KO!!!NA PANIC KO OI....nagbutang ug unlan si mama sa kwarto ni ching..ug SHOCK AU KO KAY NAG ASK BITAW SI MAMA NA"NAA MN LAGI KA DAY!?!?"SHITTTT...NAUWAW KO....hihihihi..wa bya jud na kabalo si mama na dra ko tig katulgan kong mgkuyug mi ching....sa akong ka rattle,gi texsan nko si lyndon ug ako gipadali2 ug uli si ching ug ako dayun sya gisturyaan pag baot.sige sya katawa..amo iya dayun gi adto si mama sa iya kwarto ug iya gisturyaan nga ihatod ra daw ko nya inig human nila ug inum.iya rako gipapahuway..wahahahaha...mao ng ask si mama kung pauliun pa ba ko ni ching na kadlawun naman....mao to ni balik si ching sa iya kwarto ug sige sya katawa kay as in WAAA MN DIAY NASUKO SI ETING..WORRIED LNG JUD DAW SYA KAY KADLAWUN NAKO MUOLI...mao to...natulog ko ug nibalik si ching ngadto ug inum sa gawas.

then tingala ko na ngmata2 ko naa na si ching sa ako kilid.ka sweet oi..ahahaha..naka mata ko 5am kapin...hatod ko ching sa ila skina iya ko gipasakay ug jeep..gipatol nsad ko sa akong insomia...wa koy tulog hantud ng 10am nalng sa buntag...nga 11am nko gi du-aw sa akong duka...mao to mga1pm gipukaw ko sa ako bro ky maniudto na ug sakit au ako dunggan..ambot nganu jud kaha ni oi...mao to pacheck mi sa amu family physician nya ana sya nag swollen ako earlobe ky naay infection...atay....mahala sa tambal oi...42 mn sd ang isa nya thrice a day pajud...

mao to text dayun mi ni ching...as in dugay au mi nahuman text kay ng senti senti mn gud mi....mularga nmn gud ko ugma padung lanao...ngadto nsad ko pabadlong sa akong mama...hahaha...di oi...mangita kog kwarta didto..sabot mn mi ako mama,himuon ko niyang driver ug right hand nya.sweldoan ko nya every week..ok rasd kay 1 month ra btaw.may na para naa sd maipon pra pasko..paksit gihapon inig uli balik cebu!!atay!!hahaha...mao to..text sd mi bahin sa funny nga nahitabo gabii..hahaha...sa akong meeting with eting!!gagagaga....

ang gi text ni ching pag ask nko kung naunsa si eting pag buntag:

'WALA RAMAN.GI KASAB-AN GANI KO NGANU KADLAWUN TAKA GIPAULI.KY PGMATA NKO NANGITA MN CYA NIMO KY PAKAN-UN DAW KA.HEHEHE..GPANGITA JUD KANG ESTER..."

HAHAHAHAH...atay oi......

kita sd mi ching run..manulong ko ug gubat!!counter strike mi.....kay larga na bya ko ugma..di pajud sya kahatod nko kay si papa lng daw muhatod nko...huhuhuhuh....atay!emote ver..one month invisible..yawa!ge lng!chat2 lng gud!hehehehe.....madala ra ug smyl!!!

intense madness...

wait up..im gonna try to do this step by step....mmm...im so in the mood inmaking some entry about the happenings that took place few days ago....let me take u backwards....from the ados,adventures,sum burlesque show,dramas,the long odds and evens of what i call"the humdrum love"....WARNING: SOME CONTENTS ARE NONSENSICAL AND COULD CAUSE YOU BRAIN ENCROACHMENT!!

P.S the component contains bisaya and english...okiez!>!>!

november 29 '06( freaky wednseday)

the morning of this day..i woke up beside the love of my life"NEGRA".we spent our 7th monthsary together here in my place.both woke up with a whey-faced cramping on us..we were so wasted that we woke up in the middle of the sunny afternoon that just bit the hell out of our skins...ching went home past 12nn and i went back to sleep coz i still feel so knocked out and jaded from the drinking and pot session we had with our friends last night...

around 5pm,ching gave me a buzz thru sms.he asked permission from me if he could go to chong hua hospital together with his friend to visit their sick friend who was an in patient there.he left me thinking whether id let him go or not..so i replied if i can go with him..but he said no..it made my eyebrows raised..and then i replied like asking him why wouldnt he want me to come with him...i kept askin him why..bugging him the same question from one text msg to the other....and then suddenly..things went crazy....we fought....coz of that issue...things got bigger and bigger and ended up arguing and scolding each other thru text....it distraught me...and there i gave out a transient madness..he said some things that annoyed me..irk me from my irritability...and then we found each other deciding to just end all of this damn screwy relationship....i was tired so as he...i cried..bursting myself from tears..drowning from it like i just wanna break down and cry...and yes i did...i hurriedly texted my mom that i really wanna go to lanao del norte as soon as possible with some white lies to cover the real reason as of why the sudden stubborness...i just wanna go out from this fucked up city....my mom didnt replied...and it made me more riled up...skin and bones!!!!!so so so....i texted ching telling him that im coming over at his place to get my travelling bag coz he borrowed it from me.he told me if i could just get it the next day but i kept insisting...he then said yes but he'll just leave it over to his friend coz he doesnt like to see me...duh!!!grin!!!the stupid ill-headed jerk!

it was around 11pm that night when i finished dressing up.preparing to go over at ching's place and get my stuff from him...but when i was about to go out from our house..someone sent me a message..and it left me wandering!!!it was rusty(ching's x gf)..i was quite hesitant to check it out..i was thinking to just delete it w/o reading it....i mean why would she text me..we were enemies still way back..when i discovered that they were still texting,i combatted her thru text...but its just seemingly what they call a woman's aptness and instinct.so yeah..i opened and read her messages..they were coming one message to the other...and what the fuck!!am i reading all of these right?or am i just covered up with my instillness of anger...ang amaw nga ching!!!ni text ni rusty na nanghagad ug inum sa ila balay pajud!yawa!!!!rusty forwarded ching's messages to her to me....if you guys could just see what i was reading..grrrrrrrrrrrr......the fuck!the moron!!!

i took a cab to mabolo...texted ching naa nako sa korean bldg near their place.but as to my surprise it wasnt him who brought me my bag but it was el2,a friend of ours..i then asked el2 where the fuck is ching and then el2 replied that he doesnt know..but im fuckin sure that his just around somewhere..i then texted ching to right and there see me..and he showed up..i arrived there overflowing with unsaneness....i gave him my phone and i let him read all the messages that rusty forwarded me from ching...and after reading it,while he was about to look up and face me,WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I FUCKING SLAPPED HIM ON HIS FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TWICE1U HEARD TWICE!!!AND I MUST SAY IT WAS DAMN PAINFUL COZ I CAN EVEN FEEL THAT MY HANDS WERE SCOURGING!!and then i cried....how could he do a such thing to me when all i did was to make him happy..i never lied to him..i never cheated...i never texted any guys that he doesnt know...i never hid any secrets from him coz i dont want him to lose his trust on me...i was faithful!!!!!!!!but i was hurt!!!!

he explained why he did that...but i never gave my ears and listened....the hell i care!then we decided to really end all of this....im fed up...so as he..it sucks!!!!

i was about to go home when he grabbed me by the hand and told me not to go home yet...he went back to his house and got back out with a bottle of red horse while a friend of ours was waiting outside...and now..they were actually going to have some drinking sessions...i later knew that they were already drinking before i arrived.ching's face was making the impression of getting tipsy and dosed over with tanduay and beer...i didnt join them..i just sat next to him not uttering a single word...i was mad,hurt,lost!!!!!i was just listening to them...ching was obviously making"padungog dungog" that he was hurt,he wants to die,commit suicide and all that piece of crapness...and yes..they were really drunk..

after their session,i decided to just go home but ching begged to let me stay and just sleep at his place.and seeing him like that,so drunk and boozy,with that pie-eyed look, i cant just leave him in that condition...so i craddled him to his room and i was trying to make him feel at ease...he then cried.telling me if the things that i said a while ago were all said and done?and when i said yes..he cried out loud..and to my suspense, it was the first time i have seen him for 7 months so drunk and besotted from alcohol...i felt pity...i never slept that night...instead i looked and watched over him as he was slowly beginning to close his eyes..i can see that he was tired...he was murmuring in his sleep. i hugged him tight..kissed him all over his face just to let him feel that im still beside him and im not leaving him...until the morning arose...i never had the time to sleep and even gave myself a nap..i was worried of ching's condition....he was weak...

but then i have to go home before everyone in his place wakes up...i arrived home around 7am in the morning..i laid on my bed crying myself from tears of pain..and then i fell asleep....crying is tiring...just giving me the worse time and action ever in falling asleep!

our 7month celebration!!

today is a bright and sunny wednesday...but i woke up still languishing from my hung over from a drinking session last night...last night by the way,ching and i celebrated our 7th monthsary together..we whoop it up with our friends who were gonna celebrate their 2 yrs and 9 months together...2 couples celebrating a wonderful smoking pot session night....hahaha...yeah...we ended up around1am..just so freakin wasted and feeling irie high.....

its really not a well money spent monthsary that day....but it wont matter.....why the fuck!?!as long as were together spending the most of our time...that would be a kick ass moment!!!!..

happy monthsary baby...i love you....mwahugz!

mr.vocaler..play a song for me!

looks familiar????hmmmm....ive been a fan of his for a long time...fact: Sked Besa...vocalist of Riddim S. now known as URBAL....31 yrs of age..and look alike of bob marley....aint he?hehe...God....just cant get enough of his voice....it always captivates me...never fails to amaze me...and oh....talking about amazements...his smile is one damn asset that he has that i just cant take my eyes off him...and now..when we see each other he never forgets to smile at me...all time crush.....mr.mango mango square!!!!!!

UP DHARMA DOWN

skunk-drunk..pull over will yeah!?

lately i have been drenched with the thing that people call as "scofflaw", everybody's favorite RED HORSE...and i just hate it that everytime id look at myself in front of the mirror,physically i changed a lot..and talking about phsyical abberation...i really gained a lot of weight these past months...and its so freaking killing me and its driving me absurd....blame red horse....sue the company!!!!a deceiver,a shit kind of manipulator,betrayer,crook,evildoer,felon,fraud,malfeasor,a phony.....name it all and red horse is that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but eventho how u lured me with ur sate of thirst.....u relieve me on my very and most downfalls of my life...id live my life being deceived by you forever than not knowing you at all and be deceived by some stupid and lame guy who thinks that his all that i have got.....shit!!!!!!!!!!

Layag.... :'(

The world reminds me of you

Like stamps from letters never sent

The ocean calls out to see me through

But I refuse to tame what heaven bled

And never shall I roam

In a thousand years

Finding home

The taste of salt on my face

Keeps me sane in some crazy race

All I wanted was leap of faith

One day the heart will shroud

Your world will break

The windows break when the fire shakes

The morning will never be the same

We will always be in a state of change

Further, farther

And never shall I roam

In a thousand years

Finding home

The taste of salt on my face

Keeps me sane in some crazy race

All I wanted was leap of faith

One day the heart will shroud

Your world will break ....

a saturday date with Up dharma down

this blog was supossedly done this morning..but what the hell....just as i was about to save everything after reviewing the draft, the power just shut down and blanked............black out!!!!!!!it almost made me cry my heart out..and i just couldnt control myself and that it made me really scream at the top of my lungs.i was stark-raving mad..the black out just turned my mind so blanked off...the blog that i wrote this morning was all about Up Dharma Down.and now..theres no stopping and theres no one nor would something and anything that could ever desist me from writing this blog down...

anywayz,enough with the agonizing feeling..on with the story...oh yes..last night(nov 25'05)a friday night was one of Cebu's awaited nights of all time..i went to the outpost to witness the new rising and must see local band who they call themselves as "UP DHARMA DOWN". consist with 4 members, Up Dharma Down just gave it a blast!!to be honest, i was really not that familiar with the band..i was even unacquainted with what genre of music do they play..but based from my friends who are remarkbly music enthusiasts, i received a lot of good feedbacks from them when i started asking them informations and facts about the band.i was beaten up with my consumed curiousity of the group.so what i did,was i opened my limewire and just found myself downloading their songs.i was pretty excited..but stupid internet connection that day was really dawdling and dragging...while i was waiting for the songs to completely finish,i turned on the tv and watch mtv..and damn....what a coincidence that was.it was Up Dharma Down's video entitled "OO".its actually the first time i have seen their music video,heard their music and saw them on tv..and what caught me hanging was when i first heard their vocalist's voice..that in one sec just left me jammed and mesmerized.her voice was really enchanting...that day on...Up Dharma was then included on my mp3 playlist..

when i checked on bambu spliff's profile i read some bulletins there from beverly..and what was written was actually an info telling that Up Dharma will perform at the outpost this coming nov 25..at one instant it benumb me and it got me so excited and God how i was really looking foward to watch them play.i waited for 5 days bursting with excitement.Up dharma is coming to town...and not to mention for FREE!!i started spreading the news to my friends and like me they just cant wait for nov 25..

and the awaited night has come...i arrived there with my friends and ching in an earlier time since we were so aware that if we'd go there late,there will be no vacant seats and tables for us anymore.while waiting for Up Dharma,we drank red horse and just chillin out..the outpost was really crowded..and most of the people who came there were local musicians..those who are considered famous in the music industry..and like me they were also looking forward for Up Dharma's peformance..and the long wait breaks out when around 11pm Up Dharma arrived.the people were applauding them..too bad i forgot to bring my camera with me.and my cam fon got busted so unfortunate me..but hey thats okay..nothing beats meeting them up close right..while they were performing i just couldnt just sit and listen to them...i stood up and made myself push thru to be able for me to squeeze in from the people who are also standing up watching them play..and what i just couldnt really take my eyes off last night??the addidas kingston town jacket of their vocals..and still that enchanting angelic voice that is still making me fly so high...

one of my favorite songs from them is "OO"..below this blog is the lyrics.actually from what i have researched about the band.they play a combination of soul/jazz/mellow/electro music..and their songs are mostly things that deal and talk about pain,agony,hurt,suffering from never ending love stories...they played almost all of their songs from their new released album.. what can i say!?that night??they kicked it off!!!!kudos!!!!

after they performed we were planning to move to another place since their red horse are way too expensive..8 500 ml bottles cost us 6oo plus...and what the crap!just killing our wallets and pockets from financial crisis...so we decided to move to sideline..and continued our drinking session there..but me and ching didnt really dwelled with my friends longer since it was really getting very late..we then went to ching's place coz a friend of ours who at the same time is ching's neighbor invited us to drink with them.but when we arrived there..it rained so we just then went to ching's house and slept..

i went home aroung 530am...and good thing!i went home not drunk!!!!!!!!!wepeeee.....

shit this black out killed me!

stupid....naabtan jud ko sa black out ganina.....i was almost done with my review about Up dharma down's performance last night at the outpost......and the fucking thing is WALA NAKO NA SAVE KAY NIKALIT JUD BROWN OUT.............and now...im soooo mad......................grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

OO by up dharma down

‘Di mo lang alam

Naiiisip kita

Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako

‘Di mo lang alam

Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli

Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon

At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan

Luhaan, sugatan, ‘di mapakinabangan

Sana nagtanong ka lang

Kung ‘di mo lang alam

Sana’y nagtanong ka lang

Kung ‘di mo lang alam

Ako’y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Hindi mo lang alam

Kay tagal na panahon

Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo

Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya

‘Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta

Kung ako’y nagkasala patawad na sana

Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal

‘Di mo lang alamAko’y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Puro s’ya na lang

Sana’y ako naman

‘Di mo lang alam

Ika’y minamasdan

Sana’y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

‘Di mo lang alam

Kahit tayo’y magkaibigan lang

Napapaligaya lang sa tuwing nagkukulitan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Ako’y nandito lang

Hindi mo lang alam

Matalino ka naman

Kung ikaw at ako

Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito

Ay dapat bang sumuko

Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala

Kung alam ko lang ako’y masasaktan ng ganito

Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko

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the outpost!!

first time i went to this place,i then fell in love with it..people may describe the place as somewhat creepy coz as what it was before,a haunted house...but it really got better whe4n it was then developed by some businessmen and then decided to make it as a restobar for those people who'd wanna chill and dine with some great sound of music from live and acoustic bands..the setting of the place is kind a hilly..and is far from the city..so its definitely a perfect place for everyone to relax.with its fine atmosphere and ambiance.its truly the best place to go to.

i remember the first time i went there,it was my bf's live band session.it was his band's second time to play when i actually decided to come with him..i was really curious what this place really looks like and how different it is from the other bars across and alongside the busy streets of cebu.but as i arrived at the place..nothing but"wow" was spoken from my mouth..i just couldnt say more but remarkble!kudos and i juuussssttttt love the place so much!and yes..i fell in love with it...you can really tell what kind of people usually go there.they are those who are classified as the high class social type of crowd.like businessmen,musicians,office people,government employees and politicians..but neh....i dont give a damn on it..and when you talk about menu...great food and dine in cuisine awaits your tastebuds.from their affordable food and drinks, hanging out with your friends wouldnt be any problem..specially when you hear great local music from great musicians,its a toast pare!my favorite food there is their sampler..its only 180 but surely it wont be leaving you unsatisfied and ud even be craving for more..its really different from the other restobars that i usually go to...it maybe far from my place..i can tell you that...its a 1hr drive,if traffic aint a bust from mactan to lahug where it is located..

what i cant forget was the first time i sang for my band and also the first time for skankinbrews to perform acoustic at the outpost.it was really panicking and shit.......very embarassing,,DISASTER is the perfect word to best describe what really happened that night..but it was a lesson for me and i learned a lot...but its a done deal already..were just hoping that the outpost would invite us again to perform there...even musicians like us are just so wanting to perform in the place.and those who already performed just keeps coming back just loving the place to give a pleasurable entertainment to the diners and drinkers..and now,as always,i just love to keep coming back...

need to say more!?!?!just see and visit it yourself..ive been there..so theres no way that you cant get your butts out going to the place....and tell you....like me,ull be loving it...arriba!!!

as i lie awake with you

today is a happy day..i woke up beside the man that has always been with me thru thick and thin...staring at him while asleep makes me happier realizing how lucky i am to be with this guy named "brian ching".these past weeks we never really had the great things going on.we kept fighting and misunderstandings kept coming..but despite it all, we carried on..and im happy...weeee......got so much things to say but aint enough to describe my feelings right now....ive been really busy but i still try my best to get some time to write blogs even how short it may be...

They say with love everything is possible,I would of gave you anything just to make you happy,And forever stay together...

wonderwall...

Today is gonna be the day

That they're gonna throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realized what you gotta do

I don't believe that anybodyBut you never really had a doubt

Feels the way I do, about you now

Backbeat, the word was on the street

That the fire in your heart is out

I'm sure you've heard it all before

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

There are many things that I

Would like to say to you but I don't know how

1-I said maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me?

And after all, you're my wonderwall....

Top 10 Places You're Making Love..........

The most commonly citied locations where couples say they've been getting it on at are:


10. In the shower.
9. On the hood of a car.
8. On a pool table.
7. In a department store fitting room.
6. In the back of a truck outdoors.
5. In an elevator.
4. On a trampoline.
3. In a car in the woods.
2. At your office after hours.
1. In a hot tub.

pretty exciting eiiiii............................

u caught me right down the middle

"MR. PERFECT SMILE"

isnt he just so adorable..i just couldnt believe that this guy over here would fall for someone so patheitc,crazy and lame like me...hehehe..charm charm charm...

love to distraction

meet kurt bryan....now his the one im reffering to in this CHICKEN-AND-EGG SITUATION.....
and im really caught up...papa jesus pls help me decide..stay with negra or move on with this man whos smile and charm snatched my heart.....he told me he likes me and his serious...but im still thinking and it really confuses me at this point..but i know that in thened its really no turning back!!!!!..and i wanted to know him a lil bit more....but as what i told him i aint closing my heart on him.....and he told me to give him a chance to prove to me that his damn serious...omg!!!!seriously i also like him!!!!

so world-weary..

wow....its been 100 yrs since i last wrote a real blog...havent really talked about my current and latest issues happening in my life...just really got busy with stuffs..busy performing with my band,practicing and all crazy stuffs with love...darn..busy crying.hurting,feeling the pains of this dreadful "disease"...getting depress and and burping after one glass of ice cold red horse and puffing my nrew crave for marlboro menthol...i just have to stop smoking the red ones..bye bye buddy...coz of my voice...yes i did gain a bit of my weight AGAIN..blame red horse..and as the usual night outs and chill outs with my new found beloved friends...i had sleepovers in my new bestfriends house..weee....and 24'7 drinking sessions with her nonetheless..

with love???nothing so different in it..its still the same but im really caught in this chicken-and-egg situation..ching and i still argue alot..from the smallest penny to the biggest mouths scrambling all over the place..and for how many days not seeing each other..poof...as if nothin disastrous happened..right now things are rily getting so complicated between us......and i dont knopw how to really cope and deal with this...im tired and im really running out patience..

im too tired to write today and just catch me from my next blog..see you!!!

detroit die hard

pyter..pinka idol nko na team jud ever to the million power..die heard detroit bahala nah!!!

an instant...

For each ecstatic instant
We must an anguish pay.
In keen and quivering ratio
To the ecstasy.
For each beloved hour
Sharp pittances of years,
Bitter contested farthings
And coffers heaped with tears.

buzzzzzzz

I have no life but this,
To lead it here;
Nor any death, but lest
Dispelled from there;
Nor tie to earths to come,
Nor action new,
Except through this extent,
The Realm of You!

breaking up

When love has come
But soon is gone
It begs the question
Was it there

The love was lost
And never found
Lost without you
Lost without me
Lost into eternity

The love was just a figment
A figment of our minds
Something we could ponder
But never express

Was it love or just a feeling
Was it love or just healing

Healing from the hatred
The hatred of our hearts
Our past was deep and full of pain
We needed this to release the stain

For this I do not regret
The time with you that I had spent

break me!!

and my heart is broken again into pieces.can someone pls help me put it back!!!i cant breath!!i need to catch some air!!!and im restless...and im weak for your love is not mine anymore...........

clashing of my pride

My heart is broken
But I am alive
And I intend to continue
Remaining this way

My pride is broken
But I will grow a new
Because my pride
Does not depend on you

My cheerfulness was gone
But not for good
I will smile again
Before a new moon

My confidence was broken
But not for very long
Everything mine
Is coming back to me
It was great when you though I am special,

But when you changed your mind
Everything mine
Still stayed with me
I did not know this

I thought it would all go away
Everything I had
When you left
Smart people figured it

Everything mine I carry with me
And now I finally know what it really means...
Things that are mine
Nobody can take away.
Everything mine I get to keep!

attitude points

It is your attitude at the beginning of a task more than anything else that will determine your success or failure.
It is your attitude towards life that will determine life's attitude towards you. Despite many people's belief to the contrary, life pays no favorites.
You control your attitude. If you are negative it is because you have decided to be negative and not because of other people or circumstances.
Act as if you have a good attitude. Remember actions trigger feelings just as feelings trigger actions.
Before a person can achieve the kind of results he wants, he must first become that person. He must then think, walk, talk, act and conduct himself in all of his affairs, as would the person he wishes to become.
Treat everybody as the most important person in the world.
Attitudes are based on assumptions. In order to change attitudes one must first change one's assumptions.
Develop the attitude that there are more reasons why you should succeed than reasons why you should fail.
When you are faced with a problem, adopt the attitude that you can and will solve it.
We become what we think about. Control your thoughts and you will control your life.
Radiate the attitude of confidence, of well being, of a person who knows where he is going. You will then find good things happening to you right away.
In order to develop a good attitude, take charge first thing in the morning. Do you say, "Good morning, Lord" or "Good Lord, morning?"

times goes by..why me!!

Everyday, every week time goes by. Every once in a while you feel like time goes by so fast. It gets so sad knowing that as time goesby things change and you change. Sometimes you'd do anything to go back to the safer times. When days past you're scared, scared of what the future holds you, terrified that you won't survive the real world. As time goes by you get older and the days become shorter. You never know what kind of problems tomorrow will bring .Will it bring any at all? Since you get older you think more about each day. You look so far into the future you can picture weddings, birthdays, and funerals. It's all so depressing you never know how your life will turn out.


weak!!!!!!!!

my polkadot bikini..aint yellow..

Love is something that is not easily explained No one word can express it And no one person feels the same about it It’s waking up in the morning wanting to be with that one person
And going to bed feeling the same way It’s knowing that you want to spend the rest of your life with him And it's a feeling so great that no matter what anyone says will never be taken away It’s crying every night when the one you love doesn’t love you back It’s feeling that pain in your heart when you lose that one person. But to just hear those three little words come from his mouth And actually know he means it That’s the best feeling in the world To know that someone loves you for you And wants to be with you forever Love is hard to find, and even harder to keep It takes time and effort to keep it going But you don’t mind because you would do anything in the world to keep it It’s knowing that when you come home you’ll have someone to share your day with It’s that last conversation of the night before you fall asleep He’s the first one you want when you wake up The only thing that’s on your mind all day, every day It's knowing that someone’s always there for you to cry on Someone’s always there for you to talk to about anything And won’t judge you for that It’s the person you feel the most comfortable with in the world And to know that you have that That you share that special bond with one other person That’s the best feeling in the world. But when you lose that feeling When you lose the only thing that ever mattered to you It seems like life has no purpose, no point at all You feel like you could just curl up and die That nothing or no one else matters to you And the only thing that you’ve ever wanted is now gone And you will do anything to get him back, Because he’s worth it You’ll try and try until one day you realize That things will never be the same again. Your love is still there, deep inside of you So you try your best to just be friends, And it works for a while But the feelings are still there And no matter how hard you try friend will never be good enough So you want to forget about him, but that’s even harder There’s too many memories, to many good times to just forget And no matter what you do, he’s always there Everywhere you look, everything you do, every place you go, Every song you hear, every guy you see Reminds you of him And you hope some day you’ll be back together But until then there’s nothing you can do But sit and cry, to go through that pain when he talks about Another girl he likes, or how good his life is going And that pain breaks your heart day after day Tear after tear, until you have no mores tears to cry Until you just get used to that hole in your heart that won’t go away, That pain that never leaves you That lonely feeling that stays with you forever And you may have other guys, but nothing or no one could ever compare, and you know that.

i am sick ...

nyay...lame as ever ako blog run...anyway,this day???luoy lang jud kaau...actually i woke up so early around 9am..i then switched my pc on and check over my mails and went on line in ym..then nagchat mi ni bea(gf sa cousin ni ching) ..then she told me that mata na daw si ian..hala...ms nauna pa sya kabalo na mata na akong bana..mmm...amaw jud ka boo..so i called ching dayun to make sure if mata na ba jud sya and of korz..mata na jud diay..nag watch daw sya basketball then bag uhay lng jud daw sya ni mata..pero natulog ug balik..ana pa sya na manghilam-us sa dw sya then text ra sya nku..amawa ka..yaw ko ilara...6 months na ta hapit nya ilarun pajud ko nimo...hilam-us nuon sa unlan..kabalo jd ko na matug pka balik..ug sa dihang pwertng saktuha nko..so cge go..slip sya balik then nag surf ko sa net while sya nag hagok pa..then ni larga ako papa sa balamban ky ambot naunsa nsd to among piggery ngd2..nya ni text si ching mga 12noon mata na daw sya then sabot mi na kita mi sm ky puros mi gipang laay..sige lng ga mika..nagsuwat2 ko ako poems ky ako hatag nya usa ka baga nga notebook ako tnan hinimu nga poems sukad atong nag uyab mi..hantud run..nya sa sige nmung sabot..instead na magkita mi sa sm, ni ana nlng sya na sya nlng ari sa haws ky pra makalikay ko sa gasto ky basta ako na mka laag bisan unsa nalng ako mahuna hunaan ug palit..nya luoy au ang amaw ky nag sakit...huhuhuhu..mao sya nlng daw muari ky magpagalam sya...so mga 4pm naabot sya then tuod gihilanat jud sya...luya au ug naong nya gipatumar nko tambal then gi patulog..taas au ug tug...wa jud nko samuka..kay nindot au ug nalingaw ko sa iyang hagok..while nagbantay ko nya nag padayun ko suwat sa ako poem.then nimata sya ky ni samut lain iya paminaw mao ako sya gilutuan ug noodles pra kahigop sya sabaw then dungan mi kaun..amo sud-an ky miswa,sardinas naay itlog,soriso ug buwad ug humba sd..nalingaw mi ug kaon ky basta kami na mgdungan ug kaon, grabeh amu sturya di mahurot..human namu kaon natulog nsd sya balik..then check nko iya temperature then observ gamy then inum nsd sya tmbal .then nag talk mi as in nice au amung topic..about sa amu mga ex ug sa status sa amu relationshi karun..happy na au ko sa amu situation run..dugay na au mi last nag away...as in wa na gubot then loving as ever..happy kio kay mas ni strong amu bond and mas naa nkoy trust nya run..nice jud au amu gi pang sturya ganina..sweet nga naay joke2 gamay..naay romantic ever chuchu..hehehe...ana lng..then mga 11pm niuli sya..text sya nko ok na sya gamay/..luoy au ang negra..yaw luya2 ky mag inum pata ugma sa handuraw..hehehe..

then karun rako kabalik net ...hahai....ugma tukar daw mi handuraw kana kung ok na si ching ky sya mn amu sessionist na drummer run..hahai....paitz...