our 7month celebration!!

today is a bright and sunny wednesday...but i woke up still languishing from my hung over from a drinking session last night...last night by the way,ching and i celebrated our 7th monthsary together..we whoop it up with our friends who were gonna celebrate their 2 yrs and 9 months together...2 couples celebrating a wonderful smoking pot session night....hahaha...yeah...we ended up around1am..just so freakin wasted and feeling irie high.....

its really not a well money spent monthsary that day....but it wont matter.....why the fuck!?!as long as were together spending the most of our time...that would be a kick ass moment!!!!..

happy monthsary baby...i love you....mwahugz!

mr.vocaler..play a song for me!

looks familiar????hmmmm....ive been a fan of his for a long time...fact: Sked Besa...vocalist of Riddim S. now known as URBAL....31 yrs of age..and look alike of bob marley....aint he?hehe...God....just cant get enough of his voice....it always captivates me...never fails to amaze me...and oh....talking about amazements...his smile is one damn asset that he has that i just cant take my eyes off him...and now..when we see each other he never forgets to smile at me...all time crush.....mr.mango mango square!!!!!!

UP DHARMA DOWN

skunk-drunk..pull over will yeah!?

lately i have been drenched with the thing that people call as "scofflaw", everybody's favorite RED HORSE...and i just hate it that everytime id look at myself in front of the mirror,physically i changed a lot..and talking about phsyical abberation...i really gained a lot of weight these past months...and its so freaking killing me and its driving me absurd....blame red horse....sue the company!!!!a deceiver,a shit kind of manipulator,betrayer,crook,evildoer,felon,fraud,malfeasor,a phony.....name it all and red horse is that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but eventho how u lured me with ur sate of thirst.....u relieve me on my very and most downfalls of my life...id live my life being deceived by you forever than not knowing you at all and be deceived by some stupid and lame guy who thinks that his all that i have got.....shit!!!!!!!!!!

Layag.... :'(

The world reminds me of you

Like stamps from letters never sent

The ocean calls out to see me through

But I refuse to tame what heaven bled

And never shall I roam

In a thousand years

Finding home

The taste of salt on my face

Keeps me sane in some crazy race

All I wanted was leap of faith

One day the heart will shroud

Your world will break

The windows break when the fire shakes

The morning will never be the same

We will always be in a state of change

Further, farther

And never shall I roam

In a thousand years

Finding home

The taste of salt on my face

Keeps me sane in some crazy race

All I wanted was leap of faith

One day the heart will shroud

Your world will break ....

a saturday date with Up dharma down

this blog was supossedly done this morning..but what the hell....just as i was about to save everything after reviewing the draft, the power just shut down and blanked............black out!!!!!!!it almost made me cry my heart out..and i just couldnt control myself and that it made me really scream at the top of my lungs.i was stark-raving mad..the black out just turned my mind so blanked off...the blog that i wrote this morning was all about Up Dharma Down.and now..theres no stopping and theres no one nor would something and anything that could ever desist me from writing this blog down...

anywayz,enough with the agonizing feeling..on with the story...oh yes..last night(nov 25'05)a friday night was one of Cebu's awaited nights of all time..i went to the outpost to witness the new rising and must see local band who they call themselves as "UP DHARMA DOWN". consist with 4 members, Up Dharma Down just gave it a blast!!to be honest, i was really not that familiar with the band..i was even unacquainted with what genre of music do they play..but based from my friends who are remarkbly music enthusiasts, i received a lot of good feedbacks from them when i started asking them informations and facts about the band.i was beaten up with my consumed curiousity of the group.so what i did,was i opened my limewire and just found myself downloading their songs.i was pretty excited..but stupid internet connection that day was really dawdling and dragging...while i was waiting for the songs to completely finish,i turned on the tv and watch mtv..and damn....what a coincidence that was.it was Up Dharma Down's video entitled "OO".its actually the first time i have seen their music video,heard their music and saw them on tv..and what caught me hanging was when i first heard their vocalist's voice..that in one sec just left me jammed and mesmerized.her voice was really enchanting...that day on...Up Dharma was then included on my mp3 playlist..

when i checked on bambu spliff's profile i read some bulletins there from beverly..and what was written was actually an info telling that Up Dharma will perform at the outpost this coming nov 25..at one instant it benumb me and it got me so excited and God how i was really looking foward to watch them play.i waited for 5 days bursting with excitement.Up dharma is coming to town...and not to mention for FREE!!i started spreading the news to my friends and like me they just cant wait for nov 25..

and the awaited night has come...i arrived there with my friends and ching in an earlier time since we were so aware that if we'd go there late,there will be no vacant seats and tables for us anymore.while waiting for Up Dharma,we drank red horse and just chillin out..the outpost was really crowded..and most of the people who came there were local musicians..those who are considered famous in the music industry..and like me they were also looking forward for Up Dharma's peformance..and the long wait breaks out when around 11pm Up Dharma arrived.the people were applauding them..too bad i forgot to bring my camera with me.and my cam fon got busted so unfortunate me..but hey thats okay..nothing beats meeting them up close right..while they were performing i just couldnt just sit and listen to them...i stood up and made myself push thru to be able for me to squeeze in from the people who are also standing up watching them play..and what i just couldnt really take my eyes off last night??the addidas kingston town jacket of their vocals..and still that enchanting angelic voice that is still making me fly so high...

one of my favorite songs from them is "OO"..below this blog is the lyrics.actually from what i have researched about the band.they play a combination of soul/jazz/mellow/electro music..and their songs are mostly things that deal and talk about pain,agony,hurt,suffering from never ending love stories...they played almost all of their songs from their new released album.. what can i say!?that night??they kicked it off!!!!kudos!!!!

after they performed we were planning to move to another place since their red horse are way too expensive..8 500 ml bottles cost us 6oo plus...and what the crap!just killing our wallets and pockets from financial crisis...so we decided to move to sideline..and continued our drinking session there..but me and ching didnt really dwelled with my friends longer since it was really getting very late..we then went to ching's place coz a friend of ours who at the same time is ching's neighbor invited us to drink with them.but when we arrived there..it rained so we just then went to ching's house and slept..

i went home aroung 530am...and good thing!i went home not drunk!!!!!!!!!wepeeee.....

shit this black out killed me!

stupid....naabtan jud ko sa black out ganina.....i was almost done with my review about Up dharma down's performance last night at the outpost......and the fucking thing is WALA NAKO NA SAVE KAY NIKALIT JUD BROWN OUT.............and now...im soooo mad......................grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

OO by up dharma down

‘Di mo lang alam

Naiiisip kita

Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako

‘Di mo lang alam

Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli

Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon

At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan

Luhaan, sugatan, ‘di mapakinabangan

Sana nagtanong ka lang

Kung ‘di mo lang alam

Sana’y nagtanong ka lang

Kung ‘di mo lang alam

Ako’y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Hindi mo lang alam

Kay tagal na panahon

Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo

Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya

‘Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta

Kung ako’y nagkasala patawad na sana

Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal

‘Di mo lang alamAko’y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Puro s’ya na lang

Sana’y ako naman

‘Di mo lang alam

Ika’y minamasdan

Sana’y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

‘Di mo lang alam

Kahit tayo’y magkaibigan lang

Napapaligaya lang sa tuwing nagkukulitan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Ako’y nandito lang

Hindi mo lang alam

Matalino ka naman

Kung ikaw at ako

Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito

Ay dapat bang sumuko

Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala

Kung alam ko lang ako’y masasaktan ng ganito

Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko

‘Di mo lang alam

Ako’y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Puro s’ya na lang

Sana’y ako namanIsang kindat man lang

‘Di mo lang alam

O, ika’y minamasdan

Sana iyo’y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam

Oooooooo
Malas moIkaw ang natipuhan ko

Di mo lang alam

Ako’y iyong nasaktan

the outpost!!

first time i went to this place,i then fell in love with it..people may describe the place as somewhat creepy coz as what it was before,a haunted house...but it really got better whe4n it was then developed by some businessmen and then decided to make it as a restobar for those people who'd wanna chill and dine with some great sound of music from live and acoustic bands..the setting of the place is kind a hilly..and is far from the city..so its definitely a perfect place for everyone to relax.with its fine atmosphere and ambiance.its truly the best place to go to.

i remember the first time i went there,it was my bf's live band session.it was his band's second time to play when i actually decided to come with him..i was really curious what this place really looks like and how different it is from the other bars across and alongside the busy streets of cebu.but as i arrived at the place..nothing but"wow" was spoken from my mouth..i just couldnt say more but remarkble!kudos and i juuussssttttt love the place so much!and yes..i fell in love with it...you can really tell what kind of people usually go there.they are those who are classified as the high class social type of crowd.like businessmen,musicians,office people,government employees and politicians..but neh....i dont give a damn on it..and when you talk about menu...great food and dine in cuisine awaits your tastebuds.from their affordable food and drinks, hanging out with your friends wouldnt be any problem..specially when you hear great local music from great musicians,its a toast pare!my favorite food there is their sampler..its only 180 but surely it wont be leaving you unsatisfied and ud even be craving for more..its really different from the other restobars that i usually go to...it maybe far from my place..i can tell you that...its a 1hr drive,if traffic aint a bust from mactan to lahug where it is located..

what i cant forget was the first time i sang for my band and also the first time for skankinbrews to perform acoustic at the outpost.it was really panicking and shit.......very embarassing,,DISASTER is the perfect word to best describe what really happened that night..but it was a lesson for me and i learned a lot...but its a done deal already..were just hoping that the outpost would invite us again to perform there...even musicians like us are just so wanting to perform in the place.and those who already performed just keeps coming back just loving the place to give a pleasurable entertainment to the diners and drinkers..and now,as always,i just love to keep coming back...

need to say more!?!?!just see and visit it yourself..ive been there..so theres no way that you cant get your butts out going to the place....and tell you....like me,ull be loving it...arriba!!!

as i lie awake with you

today is a happy day..i woke up beside the man that has always been with me thru thick and thin...staring at him while asleep makes me happier realizing how lucky i am to be with this guy named "brian ching".these past weeks we never really had the great things going on.we kept fighting and misunderstandings kept coming..but despite it all, we carried on..and im happy...weeee......got so much things to say but aint enough to describe my feelings right now....ive been really busy but i still try my best to get some time to write blogs even how short it may be...

They say with love everything is possible,I would of gave you anything just to make you happy,And forever stay together...

wonderwall...

Today is gonna be the day

That they're gonna throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realized what you gotta do

I don't believe that anybodyBut you never really had a doubt

Feels the way I do, about you now

Backbeat, the word was on the street

That the fire in your heart is out

I'm sure you've heard it all before

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

There are many things that I

Would like to say to you but I don't know how

1-I said maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me?

And after all, you're my wonderwall....

Top 10 Places You're Making Love..........

The most commonly citied locations where couples say they've been getting it on at are:


10. In the shower.
9. On the hood of a car.
8. On a pool table.
7. In a department store fitting room.
6. In the back of a truck outdoors.
5. In an elevator.
4. On a trampoline.
3. In a car in the woods.
2. At your office after hours.
1. In a hot tub.

pretty exciting eiiiii............................

u caught me right down the middle

"MR. PERFECT SMILE"

isnt he just so adorable..i just couldnt believe that this guy over here would fall for someone so patheitc,crazy and lame like me...hehehe..charm charm charm...

love to distraction

meet kurt bryan....now his the one im reffering to in this CHICKEN-AND-EGG SITUATION.....
and im really caught up...papa jesus pls help me decide..stay with negra or move on with this man whos smile and charm snatched my heart.....he told me he likes me and his serious...but im still thinking and it really confuses me at this point..but i know that in thened its really no turning back!!!!!..and i wanted to know him a lil bit more....but as what i told him i aint closing my heart on him.....and he told me to give him a chance to prove to me that his damn serious...omg!!!!seriously i also like him!!!!

so world-weary..

wow....its been 100 yrs since i last wrote a real blog...havent really talked about my current and latest issues happening in my life...just really got busy with stuffs..busy performing with my band,practicing and all crazy stuffs with love...darn..busy crying.hurting,feeling the pains of this dreadful "disease"...getting depress and and burping after one glass of ice cold red horse and puffing my nrew crave for marlboro menthol...i just have to stop smoking the red ones..bye bye buddy...coz of my voice...yes i did gain a bit of my weight AGAIN..blame red horse..and as the usual night outs and chill outs with my new found beloved friends...i had sleepovers in my new bestfriends house..weee....and 24'7 drinking sessions with her nonetheless..

with love???nothing so different in it..its still the same but im really caught in this chicken-and-egg situation..ching and i still argue alot..from the smallest penny to the biggest mouths scrambling all over the place..and for how many days not seeing each other..poof...as if nothin disastrous happened..right now things are rily getting so complicated between us......and i dont knopw how to really cope and deal with this...im tired and im really running out patience..

im too tired to write today and just catch me from my next blog..see you!!!

detroit die hard

pyter..pinka idol nko na team jud ever to the million power..die heard detroit bahala nah!!!

an instant...

For each ecstatic instant
We must an anguish pay.
In keen and quivering ratio
To the ecstasy.
For each beloved hour
Sharp pittances of years,
Bitter contested farthings
And coffers heaped with tears.

buzzzzzzz

I have no life but this,
To lead it here;
Nor any death, but lest
Dispelled from there;
Nor tie to earths to come,
Nor action new,
Except through this extent,
The Realm of You!

breaking up

When love has come
But soon is gone
It begs the question
Was it there

The love was lost
And never found
Lost without you
Lost without me
Lost into eternity

The love was just a figment
A figment of our minds
Something we could ponder
But never express

Was it love or just a feeling
Was it love or just healing

Healing from the hatred
The hatred of our hearts
Our past was deep and full of pain
We needed this to release the stain

For this I do not regret
The time with you that I had spent

break me!!

and my heart is broken again into pieces.can someone pls help me put it back!!!i cant breath!!i need to catch some air!!!and im restless...and im weak for your love is not mine anymore...........

clashing of my pride

My heart is broken
But I am alive
And I intend to continue
Remaining this way

My pride is broken
But I will grow a new
Because my pride
Does not depend on you

My cheerfulness was gone
But not for good
I will smile again
Before a new moon

My confidence was broken
But not for very long
Everything mine
Is coming back to me
It was great when you though I am special,

But when you changed your mind
Everything mine
Still stayed with me
I did not know this

I thought it would all go away
Everything I had
When you left
Smart people figured it

Everything mine I carry with me
And now I finally know what it really means...
Things that are mine
Nobody can take away.
Everything mine I get to keep!

attitude points

It is your attitude at the beginning of a task more than anything else that will determine your success or failure.
It is your attitude towards life that will determine life's attitude towards you. Despite many people's belief to the contrary, life pays no favorites.
You control your attitude. If you are negative it is because you have decided to be negative and not because of other people or circumstances.
Act as if you have a good attitude. Remember actions trigger feelings just as feelings trigger actions.
Before a person can achieve the kind of results he wants, he must first become that person. He must then think, walk, talk, act and conduct himself in all of his affairs, as would the person he wishes to become.
Treat everybody as the most important person in the world.
Attitudes are based on assumptions. In order to change attitudes one must first change one's assumptions.
Develop the attitude that there are more reasons why you should succeed than reasons why you should fail.
When you are faced with a problem, adopt the attitude that you can and will solve it.
We become what we think about. Control your thoughts and you will control your life.
Radiate the attitude of confidence, of well being, of a person who knows where he is going. You will then find good things happening to you right away.
In order to develop a good attitude, take charge first thing in the morning. Do you say, "Good morning, Lord" or "Good Lord, morning?"

times goes by..why me!!

Everyday, every week time goes by. Every once in a while you feel like time goes by so fast. It gets so sad knowing that as time goesby things change and you change. Sometimes you'd do anything to go back to the safer times. When days past you're scared, scared of what the future holds you, terrified that you won't survive the real world. As time goes by you get older and the days become shorter. You never know what kind of problems tomorrow will bring .Will it bring any at all? Since you get older you think more about each day. You look so far into the future you can picture weddings, birthdays, and funerals. It's all so depressing you never know how your life will turn out.


weak!!!!!!!!